I had thirty minutes for yoga in the morning which I spent researching possible college visits for next week because the trip my son had planned fell through. I gave up on trying to run in 9 degree weather, and I skipped the morning meditation to help people get out the door to school.
I would give myself an A in family logistics and a C- in self-care. That’s pretty much par for the course for me.
So how do I hold onto some of the spaciousness that my time away allowed for? How do I keep my own needs towards the top of the pile?
I was awake at 5am this morning because my body clock is still trying to adjust. I lay in bed for an hour and enjoyed the quiet and cozy. And then I got up thirty minutes earlier than usual to do yoga. I didn’t force anything - I got up because I was ready to get up.
I’ll be done with work at 2pm today and it’s supposed to be above freezing by then…so I have “going outside” on my calendar.
One of my tendencies in terms of organizing my day is trying to squeeze productive things into every open opportunity (thanks, Dad). It’s a skill that comes in handy when you are trying to move mountains to take your family abroad for a year. Or if you’re waiting tables (which I kicked ass at in my twenties).
I rarely talk on the phone or brush my teeth without also doing something else. And it pleases me to no end when I’m able to get a loaf of bread rising before getting on calls, knowing it will be ready to punch down when I’m done.
It can take a toll when you don’t stop and rest or take a few minutes to have a quiet mind. Because the reality is with family life, there are always tasks waiting to be done. There are always three things I could be doing instead of just one. And if I’m constantly shoe-horning myself into tasks, I’m going to end up shoe-horning myself into my life.
No wonder my shoulders are always tight.
So, for today, I am setting an intention of spaciousness. Yoga was a good start, getting outside later will also help.
And if I end up buying a loaf of bread to have with dinner instead of making one, that’ll be okay.
What does spaciousness look like for you? How do you connect to a sense of spaciousness? What is the impact of this inquiry in the current moment?
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