I’m aware that it’s more big picture items that feel under-organized - like the “new” website I started building a few years ago and remains unfinished. Or the business plan I haven’t written since we moved to a new community.
Of course, I could find some things to celebrate - tallying my mileage for 2019 taxes, submitting my LLC paperwork to the State, getting my International Coach Federation credential up to date. But those feel like pulling matching socks out of the clean laundry pile. A success - but with a bigger issue still needing to be addressed.
Maybe I’m being too hard on myself - it’s been known to happen.
Maybe if I just finished painting my office and was able to move back in, my perspective would shift. I keep reminding myself how much is going well, how much I have to be grateful for. And it’s with that sentence that I suddenly find the “A-ha.”
There’s a difference between reminding myself how much is going well and noticing how much is going well. Noticing invites me into my body, it invites me to sense into what appreciation and gratitude feel like.
I notice the expansion of my ribs with the breath; I feel something like bubbles percolating from my solar plexus; they are warm and golden. The bubbles invite lightness into my chest and arms, and my shoulders begin to feel less locked in place. The corners of my mouth curl up into a slight smile and connect me to my ears and eyes.
I sense myself drinking in this bubbly light and it feels like tickling and a hug all at once.
I am aware of the bright light shining in the window. Sunshine and the clearest day I can remember in a while. Each tree on the mountain outside my window looks to be especially illuminated. As if the sun were shining on each individual tree in particular.
Maybe that’s the type of catch up I’ve been needing. Not the to-do list kind, but the sensation of being caught up and embraced by life, of feeling like life is taking care of me just as I am, with the imperfections of undone laundry and ducks in disarray.
A perspective shift - sometimes it is that easy. It doesn’t mean I suddenly have eight things done on that long-range list. But it means I am at ease in the moment, at ease with my current state of affairs and at ease with myself.
And what more, really, could I ask for?
What would it look like to stop and catch your breath? To feel that life is embracing you just as you are? How might that perspective support you today?
Jessica Curtis is a professional life coach who helps people cultivate intention and live from a place of meaning and authenticity. If you think you could benefit from working with Jessica or want to invite her to work with your group, reach out to start a conversation.